You know, I think you're pretty much in batshit crazy territory when you resort to suicide bombing.
But - and it's a stretch here - I can sort of understand it. I can see how when faced with the overwhelming military might of the US, you might rationalize sending in the bombers as a desperate act of resistance, just as Japan did with the Kamikazes in WWII. Desperate times, desperate measures and all that, I still think you're bark-chewing nuts, but I can understand the thought process and the rationalization. Whether history perceives bombers and saboteurs as partisans, freedom fighters, heroic resistance fighters - or as guerrillas and terrorists is largely dependent on who wins the conflict. Damn sure that if the Empire had suppressed the American Revolution, you can bet the Minutemen would have been hung as terrorists (and no, I'm not comparing the American Minutemen to Middle Eastern Jihadists, just making an observation). So I can see how you might think that if you win, your people will remember your name as that of a hero.
And I can see strapping on a bomb and taking a couple of the enemy along with you, if your religion and ideology incorporates the concept of heroic sacrifice or 'Martyr.' Again, I think you're baboon-assed insane to believe in the whole "blow yourself up and you get 72 virgins and lamb chops in Paradise", but then again I find pretty much all religion goofy so I don't think you're any crazier than the average Texas cultist. I can understand how, after a lifetime of being surrounded by war and death and torture and poverty and filled with religious indoctrination, you might think the Big Guy in the Sky has got something better for you if only you blow yourself up and take a few of His enemies with you. I'm not saying I agree, but I can understand how you might think this way.
I have a much harder time wrapping my mind around blowing up your own people in the market place. But, perhaps, I can understand how you might perceive them as traitors to your God, your country, your ideology. I've read the religious books, I've studied the words of the prophets, I've listened to the holy men speak and maybe, just maybe, I can understand how you might believe that what you're doing is justified in the eyes of your God.
But, seriously, I'm pretty sure that you've given up what passes for the moral high ground in even your own belief system when you strap bombs to mentally retarded people, push them into a crowd of your fellow citizens, and detonate them from a distance by remote control. No matter how I examine it, I cannot understand this evil. Win, lose, or draw - you are a murderer and a terrorist and a coward and even your God must look down on you with utter contempt and revulsion.
You are the lowest of the low. If the Hell of your religion really exists, you have well and truly earned your place in it.